We've spent the last few months getting ready for major hernia surgery, as part of it last week we went in to pre surgical prep to make sure I was healthy enough for surgery. I asked them to add a ca125 the blood work just to make sure before surgery, and I get a call the next day from my cancer team wanting me to come in for more tests... turns out the cancer has returned my ca125 came back 102... those of you who followed my battle round one you most likely remember healthy/in remission is under 30.
March would have been 2 years in remission of my 5 year life expectancy.
Spent the weekend bawling my ass off....waiting.
Monday to confirm it I spent the day at the hospital doing tests, seeing Drs. had a full torso catscan and they found a new growth upper right side of my abdomen a little larger then a pea.
Tuesday I shut down laid in bed all day crying trying to accept my results and mentally prepare myself for what it to come.
Today I am still numb trying to wrap my brain around what is here and what may come of it....writing this "documenting"..distancing myself and "observing" the process seemed to help before ...and if not me maybe it will help others.
In light of this new cancer growth... plans change...expand ...now the surgery on 12/9/2015 will be a tag team ordeal ...1st Dr will be removing the newly found cancer, the second Dr to mush everything back where it belongs... and apparently I may loose my belly button this time.
Similar to last time 3 weeks to heal and then another long painful dance with a different chemo cocktail ...FUN...not ..considering I'm still burnt and trying to recover from Round 1.
Round 2 .... My survival rate goes down greatly, length of life shorter...1st time I readied myself for death...accepted the probability.... While we all know it comes for us someday I don't want to die ...not any day soon.... and soon is right up in my face.
Unlike last time I am in Portland this time, on the waterfront and will be getting treatment at OHSU, so local friends can be more involved in helping if you would like to.
As before I'm going to need love support help, at the same time space and understanding, and respect... I'm fighting for my life literally.
Good news I've done this once already ...so I know what to expect to a degree and we are prepping already ...bad(er) news I've done this already ...so I know whats coming.
Like before I'll be blogging my story but this time it will be here and sharing links (via social media links there on the right side) If you would like to help by purchasing my work or making a donation links to ebay and paypal are there on the right side. I will not be using one of those donation sites as they take a large % of the donations unless someone knows of one that does not. You can also make donations in any Wells Fargo Bank to
THE DONATION ACCOUNT FOR ARTIST MO
Account number: 1194008650
For friends local email me if you have time/want to help/ and how you can and as it gets closer and as what help is needed is determined myself or someone helping will contact you. Thank you in advance and as always...
LOVE
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Im thinking about you tonight and always but certainly due to your surgery... You know what to expect this time, partially anyway ans Im hoping your healing time at home will allow you to relax drama and static free. I WILL come in to visit and help any way I can.. Much love
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