September 10, 2013: 8:16am
Sept 2013 Ovarian Cancer the next phase in my journey through
this life. A central place to know about Events, access donation
links share cancer info you would like to share with me, well
wishes ...LOVE
Headed out to the Doc soon ..and then we'll know what there is to know.
I LOVE you all VERY MUCH
9:31pm
So..the results it is as bad as I suspected borderline between Stage
3-4, wont truly know until they get in there and really look during
surgery. On the 19th I will be returning to Portland..OHSU and they will do a total abdominal hysterectomy including the muscle
& fat walls, possibly lymph nodes and sections of my bowels if
found there...(the Doc seems to feel confident if we have to do so
there will be enough left that I wont need a colostomy bag)..and
anywhere else it might be hiding they cant see on the x-rays, ...they
also did more blood work ekg and took chest xrays today...just in
case....I can't even think about that too...after surgery I will be in
the hospital for a week and then when I have recovered enough
from that I begin combo of chemo .radiation and alternative
medicine...without it ..I wouldn't see 2014.
I spent the day with my family and my GrandDoodle they were all
there to support me and each other..gave me the strength I needed
to hear what is to come...with The Reason sitting next to me only
thing I could do was choose to fight.
I'm not going to lie and make it sound like it will be easy...statistics
are a low 30% chance ...and if it goes/stays in remission ...that
might buy me 5 more years....5 being very optimistic.... ..many
things can happen in 5 years though.
I have decided I am going to pre cut my hair ...accepting it as...no..
MAKING IT part of my warrior MOde preparing for what is to
come...and donate it to Locks of LOVE. Got to walk it the way I
talk it....LOVE even in my worst MOments
I also intend to hit it hard with a cancer fighting diet starting right a few days ago...I'm on high protein drinks ...can't eat everythings smashed together...getting my strength up...but after food...the right foods can be very helpful and are very encouraged
IF YOU WOULD LIKE TO HELP FAR/NEAR
To my foodies...often with chemo you loose your desire to eat foods taste different etc ...help me concoct some delish cancer cuisine I cant resist
I am a Pescetarian/Vegetarian (seafood/vegis) with nightshade allergies NO tomatoes potatoes peppers eggplant pimentos tomatillo etc ) ...
Scheduled shows 2013: I am going to see if someone can sit in for me in scheduled upcoming shows ..if not for obvious reasons I will have to cancel. I am also going through my work cataloging it in more pulling ones I want saved for my family ...and would with dignity prefer to 1st be paid to be the artist I am ...my Monk will handle packing and shipping ..if anyone knows my work ...its him.
it is my goal to be healthy again feb 2014 ...and have a huge celebration of LIFE in my usual Feb spot...and if I am not...it is my hope then that you may gather there and celebrate MY life.
Rach a nurse has offered to come help here and there now and then to give my mom a break ...anyone else with med skills wants to help...most appreciated
Farnell mentioned a benefit concert...those interested in the idea ...contact him each other ...YES ...now..after if thats the way the road turns..ANYTHING that helps my family in this time.
..I am an artist...going to be one until my last breath...I have been documenting myself for over a decade now, I feel for me continuing to do so will help me through the journey ..they will be raw...and they will be real.. as I experience this new chapter...you will see a part of me you may have never known...know that before you choose to look at them PLEASE if you cant handle it ...don't look and DO not leave any negative BS... I hope that you can understand my need to continue my Good Days/Bad Days project even through these dark days...
***ANY research/recipes comments etc you find please share HERE and...we can all become healthier life/cancer aware experts through this journey
Know that the notes encouragement etc are also better for me ...and us all ...here all in one place... spread out here there everywhere ...hard to follow stressful so much love I feel guilty not being able to answer all directly..please accept it is not personal ...know they are read by myself or those helping me..they are heart felt ...and woven into the strength that will help me and them..all of us ..you who are brave enough to walk this path with me ..I thank you so much for that. .I LOVE YOU ALL and thank you SO much for all that you return to me.
Sept 2013 Ovarian Cancer the next phase in my journey through
this life. A central place to know about Events, access donation
links share cancer info you would like to share with me, well
wishes ...LOVE
Headed out to the Doc soon ..and then we'll know what there is to know.
I LOVE you all VERY MUCH
9:31pm
So..the results it is as bad as I suspected borderline between Stage
3-4, wont truly know until they get in there and really look during
surgery. On the 19th I will be returning to Portland..OHSU and they will do a total abdominal hysterectomy including the muscle
& fat walls, possibly lymph nodes and sections of my bowels if
found there...(the Doc seems to feel confident if we have to do so
there will be enough left that I wont need a colostomy bag)..and
anywhere else it might be hiding they cant see on the x-rays, ...they
also did more blood work ekg and took chest xrays today...just in
case....I can't even think about that too...after surgery I will be in
the hospital for a week and then when I have recovered enough
from that I begin combo of chemo .radiation and alternative
medicine...without it ..I wouldn't see 2014.
I spent the day with my family and my GrandDoodle they were all
there to support me and each other..gave me the strength I needed
to hear what is to come...with The Reason sitting next to me only
thing I could do was choose to fight.
I'm not going to lie and make it sound like it will be easy...statistics
are a low 30% chance ...and if it goes/stays in remission ...that
might buy me 5 more years....5 being very optimistic.... ..many
things can happen in 5 years though.
I have decided I am going to pre cut my hair ...accepting it as...no..
MAKING IT part of my warrior MOde preparing for what is to
come...and donate it to Locks of LOVE. Got to walk it the way I
talk it....LOVE even in my worst MOments
I also intend to hit it hard with a cancer fighting diet starting right a few days ago...I'm on high protein drinks ...can't eat everythings smashed together...getting my strength up...but after food...the right foods can be very helpful and are very encouraged
IF YOU WOULD LIKE TO HELP FAR/NEAR
To my foodies...often with chemo you loose your desire to eat foods taste different etc ...help me concoct some delish cancer cuisine I cant resist
I am a Pescetarian/Vegetarian (seafood/vegis) with nightshade allergies NO tomatoes potatoes peppers eggplant pimentos tomatillo etc ) ...
Scheduled shows 2013: I am going to see if someone can sit in for me in scheduled upcoming shows ..if not for obvious reasons I will have to cancel. I am also going through my work cataloging it in more pulling ones I want saved for my family ...and would with dignity prefer to 1st be paid to be the artist I am ...my Monk will handle packing and shipping ..if anyone knows my work ...its him.
it is my goal to be healthy again feb 2014 ...and have a huge celebration of LIFE in my usual Feb spot...and if I am not...it is my hope then that you may gather there and celebrate MY life.
Rach a nurse has offered to come help here and there now and then to give my mom a break ...anyone else with med skills wants to help...most appreciated
Farnell mentioned a benefit concert...those interested in the idea ...contact him each other ...YES ...now..after if thats the way the road turns..ANYTHING that helps my family in this time.
..I am an artist...going to be one until my last breath...I have been documenting myself for over a decade now, I feel for me continuing to do so will help me through the journey ..they will be raw...and they will be real.. as I experience this new chapter...you will see a part of me you may have never known...know that before you choose to look at them PLEASE if you cant handle it ...don't look and DO not leave any negative BS... I hope that you can understand my need to continue my Good Days/Bad Days project even through these dark days...
***ANY research/recipes comments etc you find please share HERE and...we can all become healthier life/cancer aware experts through this journey
Know that the notes encouragement etc are also better for me ...and us all ...here all in one place... spread out here there everywhere ...hard to follow stressful so much love I feel guilty not being able to answer all directly..please accept it is not personal ...know they are read by myself or those helping me..they are heart felt ...and woven into the strength that will help me and them..all of us ..you who are brave enough to walk this path with me ..I thank you so much for that. .I LOVE YOU ALL and thank you SO much for all that you return to me.
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